‘a boy carrying god’
‘a boy carrying god’ the title track is a meditation on faith, identity, grief, and becoming.
Through deeply personal reflections, this song explores the tension between spiritual devotion and human vulnerability—moving through doubt, inherited weight, healing, and acceptance.
Rather than offering answers, the song sits with life's contradictions, tracing the quiet journey of someone learning to carry belief, pain, love, and purpose at the same time.
It is less about religion than the search for meaning, and the realization that being human is both the burden and the gift.
What begins here continues through the other songs— different forms of carrying, and one journey beneath them all.
a boy carrying god is a project about the things we carry quietly.
It is a reflection on faith, grief, love, memory, and becoming — on the invisible weight we inherit, the people we carry with us after they are gone, and the parts of ourselves we are still learning how to understand.
There is also a search for love woven through it — something mysterious and difficult to name. A longing for a connection that feels familiar before it can be explained, found somewhere between longing and recognition, in the spaces between two people, in what is said and what remains unsaid. A search for something that may be less about finding and more about remembering.
The songs exist somewhere between belief and doubt, tenderness and strength, presence and absence. They come from the places where words often fall short: the memory of someone loved, the ache of someone gone, the questions we carry about who we are, and the quiet hope that somewhere in all of it, there is something worth finding.
At the center of the project is the image of a boy carrying something greater than himself. Something sacred. Something heavy. Something he may not yet fully understand.
*a boy carrying god* is a collection of those moments — a small offering for love, loss, faith, longing, and the mysterious things we continue to carry in search of becoming whole.
Kyushu in Kolor
Some encounters arrive so naturally that they make you believe the universe has its own quiet way of bringing people together. Meeting Alexis for the first time felt like that. Even though we'd just met, there was an immediate sense of familiarity, as if we'd known each other much longer. Through him, I met Michelle, and somehow my music found its way into their lives.
Watching this film is a reminder that connection can happen in the most unexpected ways. Michelle and Alexis captured their time in Kyushu with such honesty and care—a place I’m grateful to call home, and one that continues to shape the way I see the world and the music I make. Seeing some of my own memories reflected through their lens feels incredibly special.
I'm deeply thankful that our paths crossed, that my music resonated with them, and that they generously allowed me to share this beautiful piece here. Sometimes the most meaningful collaborations aren't planned at all—they simply happen when people are meant to find one another.
Credits
Super 8 film by Michelle & Alexis
Music: Dream On by Isa Tineo
Hajimari is a collection of demos recorded between 2020 and 2026—a small archive of moments, thoughts, and feelings left untouched by time. Rather than revisiting or perfecting them, these recordings are presented as they were found: raw, honest, imperfect, and true.
Each song captures a different season of life, tracing the quiet distance between who we were and who we are becoming. There is no attempt to hide the rough edges; they are part of the story. Voices crack, rooms breathe, and memories linger in the spaces between notes.
Though these songs come from different years, they share the same thread: a search for something real. Hajimari is both a farewell to the past and an opening toward what comes next—a reminder that every ending carries the shape of a beginning. The title reflects the EP's spirit: a beginning not marked by certainty, but by the courage to continue.
The Japanese word "hajimari" (はじまり) means "beginning," a fitting image for a work that looks back in order to move forward.
Study No. 3: Falling and Faith
A study of falling into love, loss, escape, and unknown. What breaks begins to return. What disappears finds its way back.
In the end, everything becomes what it was before.