a boy carrying god is a meditation on faith, identity, grief, and becoming.

Through deeply personal reflections, the song explores the tension between spiritual devotion and human vulnerability—moving through doubt, inherited weight, healing, and acceptance.

Rather than offering answers, the song sits with life's contradictions, tracing the quiet journey of someone learning to carry belief, pain, love, and purpose at the same time.

It is less about religion than the search for meaning, and the realization that being human is both the burden and the gift.

recorded at home 2026 

prod by, pi 

lyrics

thought is evoked i feel the spark
if i spoke all the feelings i feel things would get dark

belief in a god i pray to a lot

and finally felt the arc

ends different to how it start

faith and i drifted apart

emotions come rushing in

like a break on the shore

crash memories whiplash
flash backs of how i felt way before

feelings of being insecure and being unsure

i feel i can't be healed
and there's no cure
so i go seeking for more and more
until i can't no more

swimming in an endless sea of pain
until the muscles is sore
it's getting hard to ignore
feeding into the lore

life is a beautiful balance

and delicate dance

with fragile hands

that reach the depths of the sand

and still i stand here face to face

with map and a plan

the archetype of a man

i rise when the sunrise

light comes through the blinds

i'm blinded by sight
gratitude for everyday that i wake

and the end of all days

draped in night

with my hands prayed tight

sometimes i feel like i'm god's only son
but can't be the only one
story unwritten and songs un sung

way before it begun

baring the weight of being my mothers son

even what’s destined could still weigh a ton

can't help feeling this way
feeling a pain when's there nothing to gain
so still I refrain from pictures in my life that i paint

without a brush just having patience

and trust there is no rush
so step back with no hesitation

just time practice and dedication

i find spaces in my life

my soul could occupy

spiritually exercise

the feeling of breathe arrives

and then i come back alive

to balance the human side
i'm finding the depth that's inside

it feels better to run and hide

then face the fear that's inside
projections of hate you subside
patiently wait to arrive
but then the feeling it dies

i could see in your eyes
your skin and sin one alike a disguise
you attribute your lose to the time
that's always been on your side

every single time it'll be your demise

sometimes i feel dehumanized
judge by the skin of my body
that's just my human side
soul embodies more of a spirit

that is immortalized

theres just more to life

peace